Damaged?

I have been feeling that I don't want to be in a relationship for a good long while. Like, years. Sometimes I wonder whether this means that I'm damaged in some way, but more often than not I know it's an indication that I need time to heal and to get to know myself--not as a wife or a mother but as a fully formed woman. Going on a date last week really solidified this for me. Especially with my kids being so young, there just isn't room in my life for someone else right now. And I love my kids so much I wonder whether anyone else could even come close to their importance for me. It kind of isn't fair to potential suitors, having to compete with two small, entertaining and endearing creatures who look like me. But when they are not quite so small and not quite as endearing, maybe it will be time to find someone to roll my eyes at when my creatures stomp away muttering "whatever."